Wednesday, October 29, 2008

rye bread is actually pretty delicious

man, the other day i had some SERIOUS feelings. its been sort of a bizarre several days though, so i'm just posting about it now. i guess i'll back the hell up to saturday, the day of my SERIOUS feelings.

for some reason i woke up pretty early, despite having been out drinking etc the night before (dressed as an emo panda, btw). my dad and i went for a long hike/walk and by the time we were almost home i realized that i had barely thought of nate the whole hike. my bizarre reaction to this realization was to think, well maybe we should break up, it would be easier on both of us if we just lived our lives without having to go through the agony of a long distance relationship. within about two seconds i realized that that was retarded and that nate is the most important person in my life right now, and maybe ever, and that it would be completely absurd to end things between us. then i spent about an hour thinking about how unbelievably stupid it would be for us to break up and how miserable we'd both probably be if we did. actually i spent large parts of the rest of the day thinking about that, but also about how horrible and painful this whole long distance relationship thing is turning out to be. eventually i called nate and told him everything, all bawling and snorting in true snot-monster fashion, and of course he calmed me down without having to do much of anything. once he called me "low maintenance," which i didn't understand because i get all hysterical over nothing, but i guess i also calm down pretty easily too.

in other news, i apparently missed doing makeup because i've gotten myself involved in all sorts of projects. i'm helping my 17 year old neighbor with a low-budget (no-budget) haunted maze. with halloween less than two days away, things are frantic and absurd, and i'm helping as much as i can. in addition to that, i signed on to do another shoot with michi on sunday, and with another photographer next weekend. i guess we'll see how all that goes.

i heard bits of "peek a boo" by siouxsie and the banshees in some stupid youtube video about my future, and then found the music video, which i now LOVE. i really like the song a lot on its own, but the music video really takes it to the next level for me. plus, it seems sort of halloween-appropriate. here it is:

4 comments:

Nate said...

if you like rye bread, then you'll *love* AALBORG AAKVAVIT

Rachel Elizabeth said...

NOOOOO

Liz said...

goddamn it, rachel, i love your feelings. long-distance relationships are the worst, and your HELLA FEELINGS make me feel a little less ridiculous.

Rachel Elizabeth said...

aw liz! so glad i could help!! i love your blog too, but it is SO LEVEL-HEADED